channel 28, simulcasting komo, was playing amazing grace – I don’t know the context, exactly, since it only came into my consiousness gradually, as I was bouncing from window to window, reading and reading. when it fully hit me, I just stopped. this song has long had the power to tear me up – was played at dad’s funeral, when I was a little thing. today it let me cry, for the first time.
Amazing grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost, but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.
‘Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved.
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed.
Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come;
‘Tis grace hath brought me safe thus far
And grace will lead me home.
The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures;
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.
Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
and mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.
When we’ve been there ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun,
We’ve no less days to sing God’s praise
Than when we’ve first begun.
which, of course, was interrupted by a telemarketer. if I hadn’t been crying, I would’ve just lit into him; instead, I gave him the old UWPC telemarketers lecture (he was calling for a police charity) and told him to take my name off of the list.
it just doesn’t end. it goes on and on and on.