you know, it’s sort of

you know, it’s sort of strange. 3…4…5 years ago, I wouldn’t’ve thought that this would be my life. not so much the Chad part (5 yrs ago it would have been quite a shock to me), but the web design part. I had no idea I would love this so much…enough that I just spent the last hour+ working on a design & code for a RANDOM HAIKU GENERATOR, for god’s sake.

and yet, here I am, and I’m enjoying the intellectual puzzle, the artistic challenge (mmmm, green…), and just generally geeking on a little bit of web fluff like that. I love the whole thing: coming up with the idea, writing the code, picking colors, doing the layout, making the code tidy, etc., etc. (it all validates now, btw. I just needed to add the doctype & put a # in front of one of the colors in the css.)

okay, that’s one of the things that I really get into, and I don’t know what about it that strikes in me. it’s a tidyness thing, I guess, not really being able to leave well enough alone. or something.

well, I got a design

well, I got a design I like for the “random haiku display application” (as I’m calling it now), but I still can’t post the darn thing. grrr.

it’s so frustrating. I really

it’s so frustrating. I really wanna go back to work on the haiku thing, but ftp isn’t working from my site. (Susanne, if you’re out there…help!) and I did all the work last night over at Keith’s (he & Chad were playing Unreal Tournament online), so I don’t even have it on disk, only on the server. damn.

then, in the last year:

then, in the last year:

Jan 18 | Feb 24 | Apr 30 | now
[all historical links courtesy of the wayback machine]

so, now that I understand, what should I do?

I’m not sure. I’m wondering if my innovativeness is part of what got me hired. I’m wondering if there’s a way to finesse the anxiety that I sense from time to time. but right now, I’d rather program random haiku & surf the web looking for psycho kitties (warning: sound).

oh, and I need to remember to send Greyson this link. (I think I have a crush on Joe Clark.)