I didn’t want to be writing this…I still don’t want to be writing this, and I may not publish it.
I feel numb and sick…today we had the fight (short but loud) that really ended it. we drove out to the family court in stony silence and picked up paperwork. I’m at the library downtown because I don’t want to be at home. I don’t know how long it’ll be home or if I want it to be home.
I wish we didn’t have all this stuff…the car on which we (tho it’s in my name, WA is after all a community property state) owe as much again as what it’s worth, the house which needs more work now than when we moved in, 3 cats. at least no kids. he said that today…at least no kids.
I don’t know…I’ve been tired and angry and frustrated, sick of fighting. I’ve been in a bad way, he’s been in a bad way, and we reinforce each other’s awfulness.
but I don’t want it to be over. but it is. no way around that.
I’m sorry. Email or IM if you want support.
Dear Elaine,
I am sorry that it has come to this. I having my marriage turn to !@3% over a period of time can relate,I have had one of the most wonderfull/difficult year of my brief existance.
It’s amazing that two poeple who Love each other can make each other soooo miserable.All you have to do now is not die of a broken heart, I almost did before I came to my senses.
Life will surprise you, God/Higher powers have the most amazing sense of humor.On that note who gets the cats??
My thoughts and Love are with you.
R.A.
I’m so sorry to hear this. I’ve known too many people who this has happened to recently and know it’s not an easy thing. My thoughts are with you.
Thanks, guys. I’m still very up-in-the-air…I appreciate the support…even from many many miles away.