today started great, went all wrong in the middle, and now is clearing up nicely. 😛 note to self: don’t lock your keys in your car.
it feels good to write
it feels good to write here again. I miss the day to day check-ins of weeks past…the squirrels and rabbits and poppies gone unmentioned, the strange twists of the spring weather. it reminds me of times in the past when i’ve lost touch with my writer self, that summer in college when I didn’t write for months on end. it’s like losing part of my own head, or a piece of my past.
time does keep spinning out, whether we want it to or not. one of the things that I’ve always hated about living hand to mouth is that I’m always looking anxiously towards the next payday, and so I don’t live in the moment as I’d like to.
and I live with less than I want, not enjoying my life as I want to. not that I’m always too certain about what I want, either. <sigh>
then again, my life is pretty fucking good.
- I have a good job, doing interesting work (for the most part)
- I live in a big, fairly comfortable rental house, with a sunny yard
- I have a smart, funny, sexy husband, 2 cute friendly cats, and several good friends
- I’m reasonably healthy
- I have a decent computer, a cheap connection to the internet, and I can create my own web site
- I’m still being creative and continuing with my writing
so yeah, it’s not too damn bad, is it? i have to remember, to think, to be aware of what my life is, and that it’s my life to enjoy.
maybe I should go for a walk & enjoy the last of the sunlight.
so I’m on my own,
so I’m on my own, at least until the 4th. Chad took off for eastern WA to visit Lance & go biking, as we’d agreed, altho a little sooner than I was expecting. he took the new wagon.
yes, the new wagon. it still feels a little unreal to me – both that we have a new car, and that I can afford one. I still wish we could’ve afforded a Volkswagen, but…oh well.
actually, this has been a pretty good week for new stuff. we finally bought those OXO pots & pans we saw that one time at Fred Meyer – on clearance! I set up our epersonae email accounts (thank you, Suzanne!), and I’m getting the hang of doing ODBC connections with PHP. (the extended learning intranet site is going to KICK ASS.)
but right now I’m feeling sort of sleepy and bored. I actually don’t know what to do with myself tonight. the house is messy, but I don’t feel like cleaning. I don’t really feel like being a sooper-geek and working into the evening, although if I got started on a project, I’d probably be working on it until the middle of the night. 🙂 I guess I could go out, but where the hell would I go? argh. I wish there was something fun to do in Lakewood.
I think I know what I want to do over the weekend, though:
- go to the Bead Festival!
- clean & do laundry. (woo-hoo.)
- rearrange the office-like space & get the computer into a slightly more ergonomic zone.
- clean up my hard drive…maybe reformat, if I feel masochistic.
- figure out whether I
- can afford, or
- want
a new processor – PIII, 600mhz or so, slot 1.
- send Matt my round robin.
- do some other writing.
- and do something fun with Kat.
Whew. sounds like it could be a very full weekend, even with it all to myself.
well, teaching Campus Capers (today
well, teaching Campus Capers (today was the first day) was a little easier than my brief volunteer stint at the BG Clubs. only 8 kids, and a closed door, really helps. although I’m totally amazed at how thoroughly the web has infiltrated their short lives. (they come into a web design class wanting to emulate the things they see on a regular basis, which I’m finding almost overwhelming.)
I can’t sleep, which isn’t
tired of this week. too
I’m so tired. this summer
I’m so tired. this summer schedule (long days M-W, short Th, long F (half telework)) is going to be cool once I get settled into it, but I’m having a hard time getting enough sleep. after all, it’s light until nearly 10 pm, so it’s hard to go to bed early…but then I hafta get up. 😛 tonight, I imagine, is going to be like that Simpsons episode where the Flanderses are foster parents to Bart, Lisa & Maggie – they’re being tucked into bed and are complaining about it still being light…outside of the window you can see lots of kids playing…but Ned pulls shut the curtain.
my first real post in
my first real post in over a week. I really don’t want to go into why I stopped posting last week, except that…
- never forget where you’ve linked from, and
- my boss is way cooler than my old boss.
That said, last weekend was insane!!!!! Somehow I always conveniently forget that being with the whole family makes me crazy, and then I go do something like go to Edith’s graduation. I love my sister, and sometimes I even like her, but everything is just a freaking production with her. throw in a batch of miscommunication among us, Chad having a cold, and a day that went from chilly & threatening rain to bright sun, and it just goes from there. I ended up leaving early, having missed Edith walking, and Chad & I sat in a park for most of the afternoon, talking and destressing.
Next day, I was supposed to go to the Fremont solstice festival with Matt and/or to see David Sedaris with Kat, but I just didn’t feel like braving the bus or the crowds. 🙁 Cheryl came down from Mt. Rainier in the afternoon…with a sprained (I hope only sprained) ankle and a kitten. She crashed Sat. night, then took off Sunday morning. Chad & I stayed up really late that night, talking and talking and talking. it was a good thing. y’know, I think we’re gonna grow old together. (I said that to him, and his reply: “we already are.” hmmmm.)
dinner with mom & Elizabeth on monday – we paid, even tho we probably couldn’t afford it. but I really needed to be the adult.
which is as much as I feel like writing about all that stuff. I should probably write out the whole thing about Cheryl – kid from Denver who we met on her way to Mt. Rainier, but I don’t really feel like it now.